What makes us feel...

I feel very uninspired for this at the moment, my apologies if you read this...and whatever i wrote before this...and anything really...nagh.

Why is it that Holden can be so unattached, and so uncaring for most of the population, yet he has these few people that come into his life, seem like his saving grace.  His brother Allie, who he loved, so much that...i can't really write anything to sum it up.  Now we see someone new, this Jane.  If it had been anyone else on that date, it wouldn't have mattered, anyone else.  Yet it wasn't anyone else, and somehow he still holds this connection to her that he can't  break.  

I've heard that Holden does things without really knowing why he does, which could be true.  But I believe that he is the most lost, or confused when dealing with someone whom he truly cares about.  He punches all the windows out with Allie's death, and causes his roommate to punch in the face with Jane.  But really, I have to admit, I think he does know why...or at least, it seems as if he had a reason, I might be able to pick it out.  Maybe the question is: why wouldn't you punch the car window's out when your brother died?  Well, maybe it's a bit extreme, but ONLY in the violence department, not in the way of grief.  Anyway's to sum up todays horrible reflection: Dis book iz gunda, and I liek et a lout.